Wednesday, September 19, 2007

Fear Factor

No I am not on the verge of eating something grotesque like pig intestines or lion lungs. I have just done something that for me can cause fear. I deviated from my lesson plans...OH NO!

My friends in education may or may not support my decision but a teacher's got to do what a teacher's got to do. Let me explain. Smiley Sport has a very good head for numbers from what I can see and the lesson plans were so repetitive that it was overkill. She obviously is getting the concept very well and I just feel like we can move on. Today we skipped 8 lessons!! She completed the work no problem and after my review of the math we did not skip any new concepts. My home school friends have encouraged me to not be tied to the plans and I listened. I am also not afraid of making a mistake in doing this. I feel after looking at several factors Smiley is very capable.

We had a pleasant and short day. Lovely stayed over a friends house and my friend did her work with her...thanks sister! Again fear can peak its head. Me not teach her? Is that okay? It's all about letting go. God is really working on so many things in this home school thing. I should be completely unrecognizable by the time I am done.

Baby girl had a very difficult time letting me leave her at preschool today. Fear was a great factor! She cried and asked me not to leave...my heart was breaking. Her teacher sweetly took her and I left. BOO HOO! These girls can get to my heart. OH. She was fine when I picked her up. No more tears. Yeah!

I am looking forward to a great rest of the week. The sun is shining here and fall is on the way. I love this time of year. The leaves are so beautiful. I love that the color of the leaves is partially dependent on the coolness of the evening. I love details.

1 comment:

tracer said...

You are doing such a great awesome job!!

I'm really enjoying your blog! Soon my blog will go the way of yours .. as Tuesday Mike and I made the decision .. we ARE going to homeschool Anthony! It's funny, because things are really going much better for him at school -- he's even playing with the kids at recess, but he still wants to be homeschooled. Now I have to put all the paperwork together and order books! eeeek! Thank God, he gave me the peaceful and easy feeling the closer we came (as a couple) to the decision ... on my own I just wasn't sure.

p.s. girls = emotional .. i don't think you can get away from it ... ;-)