Refocusing

Tuesday here and I feel like it is Friday. Not because of any one or thing in particular...just the movement of daily life.

School today for the most part went well. Ever since last Tuesday we have avoided major conflict. The minor conflicts are still there, but they are easier to deal with. I am going to get into one of my pouring out sessions here in a minute. First I will share that Baby Girl is just in love with scissors right now and she just refuses to hold them the right way. She does try, but its as if her little body won't do what I am telling her to do to hold them correctly. The older girls and I just laughed every time I tried to get her to do it right. I guess you had to be here.

Well here goes. I really have been struggling to not be so tough on everyone here at Owlschool. I am including myself in that sentence. I have a very difficult time not sticking to my agenda...I have said that before...but I feel like something is missing. I want so badly to bake cookies with the girls, but won't stop until school is done. Our school days have been long and have not allowed the time. In a way I feel like I am cheating them. So often in life we try to teach our children to follow all the rules for work before play and quite frankly I believe in that mind set. I am however learning as a 30 something that I can't relax most of the time because I feel like I always have something to do. Clean a bathroom, pick up toys, do laundry...the list goes on. In so many ways I want to teach my girls more than just what the textbooks are teaching, but I am having a hard time.

I am going to try and refocus on the importance of having fun with my girls. To some of you that is not something you have to work at, but sadly I do! I love my girls and would do anything for them, but I tend to be a bit "uptight"...stop laughing MOM!! It is my prayer in the coming days that we will do our work, but also we will stop to have some fun enjoying the Christmas season.