Thursday, January 31, 2008

Questioning My Ability

Well tomorrow puts us at Friday...yeah! The girls have had a decent week. Monday and Tuesday were long and tiresome. Wednesday was a great day. Everyone stayed focused and finished everything around 2. That is a good day in my book. I actually had time to vacuum and put away some laundry while the sun was up! You see how the little things bring me joy these days?

I have to say the greatest challenge to me this week is myself. I am really struggling not with the difficulty of homeschooling, but rather my ability. Am I doing a good job? Are the girls getting it? What if I miss something? Am I short changing them? I have also been struggling with the friend issue for them. I am not necessarily looking at now, but the future. Part of my reason for choosing to homeschool was concern over peers and the negative influence they can be, at times. But then I feel like they aren't playing with many other children. I am just in a bit of a funk mentally. I am sure it will pass quickly. I pray.

Funny enough, my new Bible study is about FEAR! I guess I felt I needed to create some fear to truly get the most out of study....just kidding. I do find it odd that I am feeling this way after just starting this book. Anyway.

My problems are small and my life is blessed beyond my greatest expectations. Thank you Jesus! My prayers are lifting up so many this week that are really facing true hardships.

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